Oh, cleaning and scrubbing will wait till tomorrow,
But children grow up, as I’ve learned to my sorrow.
So quiet down, cobwebs. Dust go to sleep.
I’m rocking my baby, because babies don’t keep.
(a little snippet of the 1938 poem by ruth hulbert hamilton)
could this be more true?!? a few nights ago, when the A monster woke us up with her delightful screams at 2 in the morning, i actually got excited that i’d get a chance to hold her. no, i’m not a psycho. at least, i don’t think i am. but she’s growing up so. insanely. fast and i’m really relishing every minute that i get to snuggle with her because i know it won’t be long before she’s squirming to get down and run (which she already does most of the time). so there i was, in the darkness with my messed up hair and smeared makeup, and i just clutched her to my chest and rocked her for 15-30-45-60 minutes...just listening to her breathing and enjoying her warmth. (seriously, why do babies turn into OVENS when they sleep? it’s the greatest.) the house was so quiet and i just thought about all of the changes that we’ve been through over the past year...i mean, i was still a crazed lunatic a year ago, scared of breaking my baby, and now i feel like being her mom is the most natural thing in the world. i love having a little buddy that i can take to starbucks (we had breakfast there last week, and it was pretty much super supremely awesome) but i can’t help but feel nostalgic when i think about how insanely tiny she was just a few months ago. i mean, she needs hair clips now! whoa. and like, she can say things. and she wears shoes. ohmygod, it’s happening SO fast! it’s a good thing that this journey is so much fun, because i feel like if i close my eyes for too long, i’ll be buying her her first flicker razor and teaching her how to shave her legs.
to summarize: i love my A monster more and more every day!!! even when she comes between me and my pillow. also, i should start thinking about who can teach her to shave her legs because i’m not too great at it.